I am not very smart, I have problems, and I like to code (or at least to learn to).

I want to program, but I want to learn something worth while/ professional. like make making apps, maybe websites, useful software, and etc. In 2018 I wanted to learn C# to make games, and I was lucky enough to have a highschool with that option. I failed that, I was stuck on somethin, and didn't get help for it.

Now I'm dealing with some shit circumstances, I haven't been able to start my life yet. Recently, I have got some hope to start my life; however, it doesn't start til a few months into 2022. I've lost all interests in my hobbies, and just want to learn something. I decided Programming would be that avenue. I thought about learning to make games again, but I saw no value into wasting time learning something that can't be useful. also since I've lost all interest my creative side is dead, leaving a money hungry idiot who thinks he can make apps or get a job if learns some more useful codes like Kotlin, C++, and others like that.

If you are still reading this, why? Stop reading what a crusty 20 year old failure, who can't get a job due to no SS card, and can't get SS card without money. YEs THeRE's a fReE MaIL-iN OpTiOn, but you need a printer, envelopes, stamps, and other documents that you don't have access to or were lost or thrown away by your bio mother.

stop reading

Did you know, since corona ya know is a thing, that you can't get a replacements SS card at the building. You are forced to do the mail-in option, and that they also ask for CERTIFIED school records. Guess what, in order to get a copy of those CERTIFIED records from that highschool you need access to the School Email that they made for you. Which they made very clear to me and my parents that they DELETE the email they give to you after a bit.

CALL ME FUCKING DORA THE EXPLOREA Can YOU guess what happened? Hint, it has something to do with deletion. That's right!!! It was deleted and I forgot about it.

Stop reading, go away.

So yeah shits tough, and I just wanna do something worth while, while I wait. Instead of wasting a way like I have been, even before corona. I wanna learn to make apps(not games), I wanna learn something useful/ professional, be able to make software, to always learn something new, and be able to use those skills (and make fat stacks off of ads revenue jk). On that note is google ads worth it? they take 30% of what you get. I'm guessing if they cherry pic the higher paying ads that it should even out right?